For much of my life I was always considered 'overweight', 'heavier', 'heavyset', 'big boned' - there were numerous ways I was described by family and friends. For the most part, I shrugged the comments off - not really understanding what anyone meant. I had no real food addictions (does chocolate count?); I ate pretty well. We had reasonably good eating and movement habits. Fast Food wasn't our thing. So why?
High School was a little bit more obvious with comments like "you're pretty, but you would be 'beautiful' if you lost weight" - again I shrugged these comments off - with a conscious knowing and understanding that my beauty and worth were not wrapped up in my meatsuit. But unconsciously these messages were being stored deep inside - and had permeated my belief system - leaving me feeling that I was unlovable unless I looked a certain way.
The more I focused on my weight and not looking the way the world wanted me to be - the more I loathed my body. The more I loathed my body - the more weight I gained, until my body became something to be despised and hidden away. And so, this became my journey - the journey from letting go of the scales and learning to love the skin I was in...
For me, weight loss was not about losing 'fat' - it was about 'losing untruths', it was about losing belief systems and patterns of thought. It was about gaining a self-love and confidence in the body that had served me so well. That had protected me through sickness, childbirth and chronic disease. When I truly learnt to love my body - she loved me back! I am enough!
If you connect with my story - then maybe my journey is yours too!
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